Tonight, half of my family is on a plane, headed back to NYC. They've taken half of my heart with them. It hurts. So, so much.
I am so happy for them to be going home where they truly belong. This is what it's all about. This is the goal we all had. This is part of the process. We knew this day would come. And yet, it doesn't make it any easier.
Tomorrow is a new day. I will wake up and do my very best to remember what life is like without being able to hold those precious babies every day. Without spending time with two amazing men who are such a huge part of my life now.
But tonight...I will cry. Tears of sadness. Tears of joy.
Let the next segment of this journey commence!
Awe Jeni...you are an amazing woman and its only natural to feel that sense of sadness. Thankfully you have an great relationship with the guys. The next while will be tough, but I know you will handle it with grace and courage. Keep your chin up! Cry all you want! And know Im thinking bout ya! :)
ReplyDeleteBig hugs Jeni.
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Oh sweetie!! I wish I could be there to give you a nice big hug!!! You have me in tears too! :(
ReplyDeleteLove you! Hang in there--and call me if you need to!
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You're amazing. Hang in there...
ReplyDeleteAww Jeni. Big hugs to you, girl!! ((HUGS!!!!!!)) xoxo
ReplyDeleteI am just catching up on your blog!!!!! First...congrats on 2 beautiful healthy babies and those sweet pics of their daddies!!!! You did an amazing job!!! Second, the tears, sadness and emotions will eventually even out. I know exactly how you feel. When you get sad, just look at those pics and know that you did the most amazing thing ever!!! I'm 4.5 months out and it seems like an eternity ago....I sometimes don't even remember I gave birth until I get the sweet pic reminders!! Hang in there girl....big hugs!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteAh Jeni, wish i could give you a hug... You have done the most amazing thing and it must be heart breaking to watch them leave!! I hope that everyday gets alittle easier for you but you will always be there angel xx
ReplyDeleteNow I'm tearing up too! HUGE HUGS AND SMOOCHES being sent to you!
ReplyDeleteWe just had our good byes with our Surrogate and emotions run high. Know that we, intended parents are so grateful for what all surrogates do, the most selfless acts imaginable. I cry for you and for my babies mamma as much. I prey each day brings some relief to you and all surrogates. Cry, Laugh, let your emotions flow.
ReplyDeleteI know that feeling all too well. Goodbyes are so hard when you put your heart and soul into something. As a surrogate we do give a piece of our heart in the process. Just know that I'm sure George and Farid cherish that piece that you gave so selflessly.
ReplyDeleteThings will be different and you'll get into the groove of things eventually. Just remember it is a new beginning. Take it easy.
I am so thankful that you are sharing your true emotions, I am looking into surrogacy after we are finished having our kids and its so good to see all them emotions that go into this wonderful journey.
ReplyDeleteSo much love to your family, all parts of family.